Essay writing: baths, beers, and tears. Sometimes all at once. I'll feel much better once this paper is finished. It's been a blast to write, and I'm strangely satisfied with it, but it's quite difficult balancing English and theatre at the moment. I've severely neglected OCG these past few days.
Unfortunately, I find that I want to devote 100% of my time and passion to theatre. But I also want to devote 100% of my time and passion to English. And I don't want to devote 50% to each. What ends up happening is I devote 25% of my time to each and 50% of my time to being stressed. Luckily, there's a lot of thematic overlap between my current English class and this play.
I do feel like I'm in reasonably good shape for Liz, though. There's still some things I don't feel entirely certain on, which is really nice at this stage. It's not allowing me to be complacent in any way. And I love possibilities; I love knowing that there are still options out there that I haven't explored.
The best part about Liz, though, is that she's a character I love so very, very deeply. Obviously it's an actors job to love every part they play. But sometimes I find there's an even deeper connection that happens. That's when you know you've been well cast, I suppose. It's still a challenge, but there's this innate connection. And with Liz - my god. My heart aches. I just love playing her. And I want to give her the biggest hug.